Lesson 1 - its not about me

in her first lesson, Miss Blue decided to drain her sluts of their uncontrolled desire to always think about their cocks and cumming instead of focusing on what is important as she shapes us into finely tuned obedient whores that will make her proud. She decided that the best way to get this out of our systems was to cum every 2 hours for 24 straight hours. Miss Blue clearly seemed to be aware that this task would break a slut's will, as it probably comes close to being physically impossible unless the guy is truly an orgasmic wonder. most sluts will "peter out" within the first few episodes, and after that even the attempt approaches physical torture.

since i am a sissy and thanks to Mistress Akasha's training am now more like a girl than i am a guy, i knew this test was going to be specially challenging.  i don't think i have cum like a guy in over a year, and for the most part (outside of the occasional accident or unintended night time release) cum only  on special occasions when Mistress Akasha says it is ok. when i do cum, it is into my panties through a combination of caressing my titties, a vibrator or gentle strokes on the tip of my clittie, or sometimes penetration if Mistress Akasha specifies that. 

as a result the thought of cumming so often and for so long was specially worrisome for me. but the thing that made me move forward anyway was the promise that i made to Miss Blue that i would try my best, even if the goal appeared impossible. and of course as She has stated several times, this is about her, not me.

so i did begin the lesson with good intentions, and thanks my vibrator and my very sensitive nipples and clittie (and not having cum in a long time), i did cum in my panties and it felt wonderful! but from there things when downhill in a hurry unfortunately. so i won't go into any more detail about that! being capable of multiple orgasms is another part of being a girl that i have been unable to duplicate.

so in response to Miss Blue's questions (posed in lesson 2), i can answer that i found the lesson very difficult. the only things that kept me from giving up in frustration was my promise to do my best and remembering that this was not about me, it was about what Miss Blue wanted.

this is certainly not the good start that i had hoped for in this training, and seeing as this was only lesson 1, i think it is going to be a very long month. if i survive.